I pray but to myself

For You would never leave me comfortless

For You but give it all to all

But I cannot accept Your gentle touch

My fear of You forbids me to accept

Your everlasting love

My belief in my own littleness

dictates the little that I will receive

I pray but to myself

For You give everything and always

There are no limits to Your love except my own

I pray but to myself

For You would not want me to suffer pain

Or loss of any kind

And so I pray to what I made of you, an image that I hold

To substitute Your magnitude for things that last

Only an instant and that leave

Me with less than nothing to behold

 All this I pray to while Your love 

Surrounds me in an everlasting light

so vast and unimaginable 

I can only shut the door to You 

And ask for scraps when what You offer to me

Is Yourself

Your glorious Self, Your peace and stillness deep

Your comfort and Your everlasting arms

And so I pray until one day 

I realize that I have everything I want

And ever wanted 

And then prayer can become

What it has always been, a song

Of love between

Creation and Creator

Lover and Beloved

You and me

Destiny (part two)

Your destiny is laid before your feet

Clear as a summer's path through golden fields

Clear as a shining star in cloudless night

And clearer still

Like the path of the sun from dusk till dawn

Like the tides in the ocean, like the moon

And its reflection in the stillness of a lake

And clearer still

You are but what you want to find when searching high and low

From East to West from deepest sea to highest peak
From smallest into smaller still
With no place else to go

You search in vain, yet feverishly you look for what you lost

You look for what you can not find
But what you want the most

For you but search for searches sake
In order not to find and even as you look for things
Outside your holy mind
You do not see that everything you looked for all your life
Is here, right there in front of you to end your endless strive

You will but weep when finally your eyes set on your self
And find in utter loveliness the love you but withheld
From you and only you for all of it is laid
In front of you to carry you beyond the world you made

Fear not that loneliness awaits you at your place of rest

For everyone you ever met has saved your kindnesses 

And laid them at your feet as gifts

When you arrive at what you are
Your journey will be gone
The journey ends where it began
And all that's left is everything
You thought you lost but won.

Your destiny is laid before your feet
And even that is not the truth
The path through golden fields
The shining star in cloudless night
Is all but part of you.